Emotions?

I am just kind of putting this out there. Why can emotions be all over the board even though nothing has changed. Some days I am happy. The next day (nothing happened) I feel like I could cry all day. Yesterday and today I just feel very despondent. Raven tried so hard last night to help me feel better. So did all my usual phone friends. Nothing worked. I still feel like I could stay in bed and cry all day. Maybe because it's so dismal here in the great State of Ohio. Maybe because it's that time of month (although I hate the way men think thats the answer to every negative emotion). Maybe because as Raven and I get closer to parole hearing and the hope that he will be home soon, I feel scared. I can handle the time that he may still be gone. What I can't handle for now is the fact I still don't get to see him. We are coming up on the anniversary of the last time I was able to hold him. It's will be a year. Long enough, I feel to be punished for breaking a rule and falling in love with Raven. We have held strong throughout this year. With letters and phone calls, our love has flourished and deepened. So I was just wondering to my self, how long can they punish us for such a beautiful emotion such as love.